Snug As A Bug In A Rug Y’all

Snug As A Bug In A Rug Y’all

Snug as a bug was first introduced to me by an adorable little girl from Alabama, and I just love the saying. The more I talk to “Southerners” the more I hear it being used. While I was writing the title to this post I wondered where that saying came from and according to Google (and we all know how much I believe Google knows everything) Benjamin Franklin came up with it, and since he was from Boston I don’t really know how that became a Southern saying. Turns out it’s a children’s book too, who knew?

But anyway, I’m sitting here snug as a bug all wriggled (another predominately Southern word that worked its way in to my vocabulary) into my pillows and curled up in my comfys with Nick at Nite on the TV and I don’t feel even the slightest bit sleepy. Since I can’t lurk on Facebook anymore I felt like I should catch y’all up on the things that have been going on in my life.

I don’t really remember when I stopped writing and I don’t feel like looking to be honest so if  I’m redundant I apologize. Both of my parents got married this year, and I couldn’t be happier for them. My Momma married her high school boyfriend from before my Daddy in June, and before you go saying that they should have gotten married first and just saved the trouble um hi, I kind of like being alive. That marriage made me no longer an only child and become one of four with an older brother and a younger sister and brother. We’re all in our 20′s and honestly I don’t really have a relationship with any of them. The younger brother I do talk to a bit and will be watching graduated from boot camp this winter but other than that there really isn’t a relationship because we are all grown up I guess. My Daddy married a very sweet lady over labor day weekend making me not one of four, but one of eight. I always wanted a big family but I didn’t think it would happen when I was 24. I gained 2 more younger sisters, twins - one of which acts just like me and one that loves having a big sister but still mothers me a little bit when were talking on the phone, and 2 more younger brothers that keep me very entertained. I have more of a relationship with them and I think it is because they are still living at home so even though I am 12 hours away  I am more a part of their lives than the ones that are grown up and moved out and really only saw me at the wedding.

The restaurant I was working at closed down in June, I found out over the phone the day of my Mom’s wedding, because we just didn’t have high enough sales. So after a couple of days of freaking out I went to two interviews at other steak restaurants in town. They both offered me the job but after hearing awful things about the management and being told that I wasn’t outgoing by the one, I decided to take the job at the other and have been there for almost 4 months now. I started this job the day after Texas Steakhouse closed. I love my job and even got to work a celebrity golf tournament for the wounded warriors last Wednesday. I had never heard of any of the celebrities that were there but hey it still sounds cool right? I love serving and most people look at me like I’m crazy because a lot of servers are just doing that job on their way to a career in something “better”. But for me it just fits. I work maybe 30 hours a week at the VERY most but usually around 20 and make more than I did at a 40 hour “big girl job” that I hated. I get to talk to so many different kind of people the whole time I’m at work and let’s be honest it’s pretty easy and low stress. I love my job, and it never feels like work. How many people can really say that?

The hurricane ripped the top on my car, which turned out to be a blessing since I was going to need a new top soon anyway and now I have a beautiful black top instead of that ugly peanut butter brown. My clutch finally got fixed but it looks like something is wrong with my transmission because it won’t go into 2nd gear at all. I’m taking that to get looked at sometime next week. The car is 10 years old and that’s the only problem I have ever had with it, and I bought it for way less than its worth because the guy I bought it from was less than smart, so even if I have to put a transmission in it I will still have put less in the car than its worth. And the really important part… I’ve had the car for around a year now, and I still love it. It makes me smile just to drive it. My car is paid off and I love it, how many people are that lucky?

I have lost almost 20 lbs since Matt deployed. Most of that was just because I changed the foods that I ate. I want to make it clear at no point did I go on “a diet”. When I wrote the post about my new diet, I just meant the foods that I consume. All red meat, poultry, and dairy that I eat is organic. I eat organic vegetables here and there but that isn’t as important to me. The growth hormones they give cows and chickens are scary. Watch Food Inc. if you don’t believe me. But the growth hormones were really messing with my body and TMI alert keeping my from having my period. Turns out I am really sensitive to that stuff. Just in changing my food I lost 8 lbs my clothes were starting to fit me again and it made me really happy. After going to the Dr. because I didn’t have any energy along with a few other things he suggested I get on a work out schedule. At first I was like Um hi are you crazy I have no dang energy to do daily stuff and you want me to go to the gym?! But I listened to him and started working out 3 times a week. I felt better and lost 3 more pounds. Then I started working out 5 days a week because I felt better, but still not wonderful, and my clothes were starting to get to big for me. At this point I didn’t really know how much weight I lost but people were starting to comment on it. Now I work out 5-8 times a week (on a really stressful day I go twice) and I’ve lost 5 more pounds. None of my clothes fit. I have gone down 2 jean sizes and am about to have to buy some another size down. I want to lose 4 more pounds and I will be at what my Dr and I think is a healthy weight and one that I think I will be happy with. I like looking in the mirror again and I really feel good about myself. That is something I don’t know if I have ever been able to say.

I also found out that I have ADD. It explains so much, I guess I wasn’t really a space case or a dumb blonde. I just wish I would have known this back when I was in high school, I might have done better. The Dr. said he thinks I was misdiagnosed with depression when I was 16 and that I showed all the signs for ADD when I was explaining how my life was in high school. But since I am being treated for it now my life has gotten so much better. I can focus and I am back in school, my house is spotless again, I am a million times better at work.

Oh yeah, I’m back in school! I’m not at Ole Miss, and that breaks my heart, but I am going to the University of Maryland online. They work with the military and have great rates for military and dependents and even have classes on some bases. None on Lejeune but still. My degree is still on the pre law track but my declared major (what? I finally have one of those?!) is psychology and I even have a minor y’all, sociology. I am still thinking about a law degree, but like I said I really love waiting tables. And I don’t know if I would feel the same way about dealing with divorces day in and day out. I am thinking about getting my bachelors and then re-evaluating. There will absolutely be a graduate degree in my future I just don’t have a clue what it will be in. But I can promise y’all that paper will say The University of Mississippi. I think I might want to own a small diner style restaurant or maybe a bar. I know what ever I do it is going to be in a small town in the South.

I think I have you all caught up now, and I am starting to get sleepy, so I’m going to put my computer away and wriggle in under my super fluffy blankies and be tucked in snug as a bug in a rug. Good night y’all.

GoodBye Facebook

GoodBye Facebook

I know what your thinking… are you ok? First you don’t post on here for 3 months and now you deactivate your Facebook account?!?!

I’m ok ya’ll, I am just tired of all the stress in my life. There are a lot of things that are about to change and I don’t need the whole world knowing ever single little update to my life as it happens. I don’t need to be constantly “plugged in”. With out Facebook all up in my business 24/7 I will have more time to focus on other things that really matter. I’m back in school and I need to spend more time studying and doing my homework not scrolling through Facebook.

I feel slightly refreshed after deactivating it, and it is most likely temporary but right now I don’t see a specific time that I will be back on there. (So Erin you aren’t the only one in the world with out an account now, I’m right there with you) So for ya’ll that have a Facebook I didn’t delete you so don’t freak out. I just outgrew (?) Facebook.

 

Who Needs A Man (part 1)

Who Needs A Man (part 1)

Sometimes it seems like during deployment everything falls apart.  I have been driving Matts car because the clutch went out in my car and the other day on the way home from the clothing store the tire decided to blow out. Thank goodness my dad made sure I knew how to change a tire because thats what I had to do. On the side of the road, and I was all by myself.

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Sometimes I feel like I’m gonna be all by myself forever, like this isn’t just a temporary thing. Thats not a wonderful feeling. But lately I have been feeling like the world is falling apart but while I am fixing things and changing tires and everything else that seems to be breaking I am starting to feel less and less dependent on Matt. It’s a bittersweet feeling but being in a relationship like this I need to be able to put together entertainment centers and paint and fix cabinet doors. I do find myself jealous of women that can complain that their husband didn’t fix their washing machine the same day it broke but then I get a sense of pride because I know how to do it myself. I don’t need Matt to be home to make the dryer start working. Between me and google and my pink tool set. I can fix anything that breaks in this house. I’m intimately familiar with WD-40 and a craftsman wrench. I got this.

 

 

Have No Fear…

Have No Fear…

I got a job ya’ll. I don’t even go a day with out working, thank goodness. I’m still waitressing and still at a steakhouse. I couldn’t be more excited. I start Tuesday and am looking forward to working with a whole different crowd of people. A lot of my regulars at Texas are going to be following me to the new job so I will still get to see them. I am sad that we close Monday though and am really going to miss the people who I work with now. For the most part they have become a family to me and are an amazing source of support while going through this deployment. They are very understanding when Matt does get to call me while I’m at work, although I would answer even if they weren’t. They are an amazing bunch of people and some of the best management I have ever worked for, and I am going to miss working with all of them.

I had another ear infection last week and had to go to the ER for again but this time I got the number for an Ear, Nose, & Throat specialist so hopefully I will find out why I keep getting these infections and can make it stop. My allergies are acting up because of all the smoke from the wildfires, but except for the air smelling like camp fire for the last week we aren’t affected by the fires.

I’ve heard from Matt a lot lately and he is doing well. He can’t wait to come home but were 35% down on this deployment so we got this. Life is pretty amazing here besides the obvious sucky parts.

Going Thru Changes

Going Thru Changes

They say your whole life will change during a deployment. The way you handle that really defines who you are. I am trying so hard not to fall apart.

I just found out that I will be losing my job on the 27th. They are closing the restaurant that I work. Because I have been back home for a week and  a half I haven’t even been able to try to find a new one. And while we don’t NEED me to have a job, I like working. I like feeling like I actually do something with my life, I like having a reason to get up and get out of the house and be around people. I emotionally need a job.

My car has been in the shop for a month now and the guy still hasn’t even started on it. So I had a friend go and get it from the shop and I will figure out how I am going to get it fixed later. But I didn’t want that guy to have it anymore, he made me mad.

I spent a couple of days in Wisconsin with Erin and it was nice to be there. I felt a million times less stressed there than I usually do. It was like a tiny little mini baby vaca. lol I leave to go down home this weekend and figure out what I am going to do with my life. Hopefully I find a new job soon, and if I don’t I will be spending a ton of time by the pool with my books. My reading list has been slacking this year…